this is the first birthday i can remember that i didn’t wear something new. if i’m honest, it was hard. i like to celebrate occasions with new things. i spent a long time standing in my closet asking myself what i should wear and wishing stacey and clinton would magically appear and tell me.
it was good for me, though. there are many people in the world who have one change of clothes- maybe not even that. i don’t deserve something just because it’s a special day. it’s a privilege to receive gifts and new things not a right.
this week has been the hardest so far. i’m not tired of my clothes yet, but i’ve heard people talking about shopping and others have asked me what i want for my birthday (a blazer, a pair of nude pumps like audrey’s and a pair of colored heels like elaine’s. thank you for asking), and i’ve gotten that familiar twitch of excitement about adding a new piece to my closet. if i ignore it do you think it will go away? hmm…i’ll let you know.