control is something i crave, something that gives me comfort, something that makes my little world feel “right”…and something that the Lord has been convicting me that i need to give up.
His timing is so perfect it fills me with joy and frustrates me at the same time.
He’s changed my heart to where i’m praying for (literally begging) Him to direct my steps throughout the day and teach me to lean on Him rather than trust in my own ability…all while i am in the midst of two of the biggest events i’ve ever helped with at work.
this results in episodes like today:
we were having friends for dinner and i needed a few things at the store. so i went before work, checked it off my list, worked the day away, then got my groceries out of the fridge, set them down, picked up my purse, keys, sunglasses, etc., and drove home. i was happily prepping for dinner before i realized i had left all the groceries at the office. 30 minutes away. with dinner scheduled in 20.
in the past, i would have panicked. and i do mean pan.nicked. plates clattering, hyperventilation…the whole shebang.
tonight? i made arrangements to get the food back in the fridge at work so it wouldn’t spoil, came up with another meal, and everything was great.
praise be to God! at this point, i think control will be something that i always struggle with, but may He shine through it!
“But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 corinthians 12:9