october musings

this song and this sermon. wow.

they speak truth boldly and sum up what i feel like the Lord’s been teaching me this month- challenge related and otherwise.

in his sermon, mark talks about identity, and how if you are a follower of Christ, that is your identity.

anything else we find identity in is an idol- often these are good things, but in God’s place; and therefore the wrong place. mark encourages introspection to identify idols. not sure? “follow your emotions. what makes you angry? what makes you depressed? what makes you really happy?” (these are from-memory quotes, so they’re really more of a paraphrase.)

so i’ve been studying my emotions, and they’re re.veal.ing.

  • standing in front of my closet, feeling like i have nothing to wear quickly turns my emotions into a tailspin that if i let it, has power to wreck an entire day.
  • my to do list often dictates my waking hours. to the point where if i don’t get things crossed off, i’m anxious about it. even if that ‘to do’ is something as menial as dusting.
  • i have this picture in my head of the way everything (everything) is supposed to go. when it doesn’t match reality (um…95% of the time), i’m tempted to freak out.

nothing is more important than loving Him and loving others. not clothes, not a to do list, not unattainable perfection. nothing.

and that’s where I am at the end of october.

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15 Comments

  • Rhonda Kay October 31, 2012 at 6:30 PM

    That’s a GREAT place to be at the end of October! Love you, girl!

  • laurara October 31, 2012 at 7:28 PM

    I so relate with your to-do list anxiety. Having kids has made that a REAL challenge as many days (sadly) pass where I think… I didn’t spend ANY quality time with them, I was so wrapped up in chores. It’s a daily battle.

    • Selah November 1, 2012 at 6:46 AM

      I can relate to your struggle. Mom guilt is awful! Fortunately, kids don’t feel the way their moms do. For instance, this is a actual conversation I had with my son, age 7, earlier this week:

      Me – “Hey Buddy, give me a cuddle. I feel like I haven’t seen you all day!” (he had been playing Legos in his room for several hours)
      Him – “Mom, we’ve been together ALL day!” (this was accompanied by head shaking)

      For him, knowing I was there, if he needed me, was the important thing.

      • Caitlin November 1, 2012 at 6:43 PM

        Aww! So precious. I just love the way kids look at things.

    • Caitlin November 1, 2012 at 6:42 PM

      It’s so good that you see it, though! There were far too many days where I didn’t realize it. PS I can’t believe how big your sweet babies are getting!!

  • laura October 31, 2012 at 7:29 PM

    why does it sign my name as laurara? weird….

  • Lauren Guenther October 31, 2012 at 7:52 PM

    Love that song. So convicting every time I hear it. Love you tons!

    • Caitlin November 1, 2012 at 6:42 PM

      I’m so glad you shared it with me. I can’t stop listening now. Love you, too!

  • Selah November 1, 2012 at 7:01 AM

    Ephesians 1:13 talks about us being marked with a seal (the Holy Spirit) when we believe in Christ. I think of this like a kid writing his name on his stuff – toys, books, clothes, etc. It’s God’s way of saying “This is MINE.”

    I am His. Thanks for the reminder!

    • Caitlin November 1, 2012 at 6:44 PM

      I really like the imagery you gave that verse. Thank YOU for the reminder!

  • Kirsten November 1, 2012 at 11:32 AM

    This is so true and so good! I have been dealing with that lately so much.
    With my identity and where I get it. Making sure I get it from Christ.
    I am totally gonna listen to this sermon tonight!!

    • Caitlin November 1, 2012 at 6:45 PM

      Girl, it’s so good! The one I linked to today is even better- but will step.on.your.toes. Don’t say I didn’t warn you :)

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