this week i found myself wanting to throw things at my closet until it produced something new. something i haven’t worn before. something pretty, shiny, and/or sparkly. (it’s not working.)
yes, this year has been refreshing and yes, it’s opened my eyes to how blessed i am and the fact that i don’t need more things. but sometimes i’m ready to be done being “refreshed” and gosh darn it sometimes i just want more!
as i’ve wrestled with my thoughts this week, i’ve begun to realize that at the root of my addiction to shopping lie selfishness and dissatisfaction.
selfishly, i want more- for myself- and far more often than i want things for others.
and when i’m dissatisfied, it’s easy to buy a new top to get a quick pick me up rather than admit there’s an underlying issue, much less pray about that issue or talk to someone about it. much easier.
so here’s to realizing that what i have- it’s enough. even if i never bought another piece of clothing or any type of accessory, i would still be me. maybe a slightly disheveled and faded me, but me, nonetheless.
man. who knew shopping (or lack there of) could be so deep?